tl;dr - cannabis is an important pillar of my life. the same is true for many millions of other people. and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
it hit me while masturbating in the shower, i'm never going to be completely sober. i need drugs to function as a member of society. and that's alright with me.
i also know, more importantly, that there are millions of other people like me all over the planet. most of us just hide to survive.
edit:
i only smoke concentrated cannabis. sativa strains preferably.
i don't consume any other drugs. i used to. but not anymore.
i used to regularly consume alcohol, caffeine, LSD, MDMA, shrooms, cocaine and salvia divinorum. nothing like the DMT and designer psychedelics of today.
i feel fortunate to have lived through my own experience of drug culture and walked out the other side.
Ngl I still smoke weed most days but since dabbling with shrooms all the other stuff doesn't appeal to me anymore. Shrooms have also changed my perspective on what drugs truly are. You probably don't really need them. But it's not the end of the world if you keep taking them. You're sacrificing time, money, physical health and the ability to overcome boredom creatively for the option of controlling your feelings to a degree. If that's a fair trade to you then by all means. Just be sure it's not only the drugs speaking.
Yeah, shrooms really made me want to only consume things that grow from the Earth.
Of course, here I am on estrogen but the psilocybin hasn't smacked me in the face over that yet so I think I may be good.
Watch out, lsd made me actually think about my gender. Which was fucking weird because it would've blown my mind had it happened before I transitioned. But no, I transitioned purely on "what body type would spare me from dysphoria?" And 4 years into estrogen acid is like "hey you know all that heady parts of gender some people talk about? Well you're about to see how you interact with the divine feminine"
I love psychedelics but they can have some real personality to them, and they do cut down the frequency I want to drink.
Aye-aye, captain
Funny enough it was actually a few months after I got the nickname I use as a username