"You know how a popular time travel question is, if you could go back and kill Hitler, would you? People are going to be asking the same about Trump and Musk (and Vance and Thiel and a whole mess of others) if the dust ever settles."
MelodiousFunk
Good move bailing on that therapist. When their only tool is a hammer, everything becomes a nail.
I'm one of those lucky folks that has classic anxiety. And severe depression. And a handful of other things, all filtered through AuDHD. And it's really fucking hard to tease out one of those threads because the knot just pulls tighter. A knot soaked in lived experience, seasoned with copious amounts of self-reflection. Sometimes I know what's coming and actively avoid it, sometimes to the point of dissociation. Sometimes I don't know what's coming, and my brain goes haywire with possible scenarios, most of which are awful and self-spiraling but induce anxiety regardless. But it's all intertwined, feeding off of each other and everything else to create that Gordian knot.
I feel like I got really lucky finding my current therapist/clinic, because that was the first place that wasn't completely useless. That said, there are still periods of frustration. As knowledgeable as he is, he still struggles to grasp the extent of things. And because I'm "high functioning" (we both hate that phrase but it was agreed that it would be used as a placeholder for "lived my entire life being intelligent enough to mask my way through most situations until the mask fails and I go into a tailspin"), the mask gets taken for granted sometimes, as if it's an outside support structure I can lean on as opposed to something I dedicate great effort (and lots of mental duct tape) into maintaining.
It can be difficult finding the correct fit for therapy. The more layers people have, the harder it gets to find someone that can handle all of them. That said, take this as a learning experience. Bring this knowledge to the next therapist and be upfront about it. The process sucks. But for most of us, it's all we can do.
Best of luck to you, truly. You're not alone.
If I'm trying to work through a problem, then yes, a call is better. It lets the thoughts flow and you've got someone else there to help fill in any blanks.
It also takes me forever to write emails. That said, if I'm discussing something work related with someone higher on the crab bucket, I am 100% going the email route. All that time and effort I'm putting into exact wording and tone? That's gonna be on record, and it's gonna be to my benefit. As are the vague one-sentence replies (if any) by management. I'm sorry, you're asking why project X is on fire? Here's 6 months and 5000 words of documentation, of which your contribution was, "ok."
Believe me, I totally get where you're coming from. I just had to learn the hard way that I needed to weaponize my literary elephantitis as a way of self defense.
Natural selection gonna naturally select
*autocarrot
This was not what I was expecting from Grey's first Trump 2.0-related video.
Elon/Trump stand there pressing the flapper over and over hoping for a better outcome.
Okay, that one got me good. "Better outcome." Hoooo boy.
Mental stuff needs an in-person evaluation.
Not having met me hasn't stopped them from denying me twice.
Create alt accounts.
Edit: this is normally when I'd switch to my little-used st.w account and agree with myself, but it appears that federation is lagging by at least a day, for this comm at least. Neat.
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