I appreciate the sentiment in point two. I feel similar when others speak of suicide. In this case I think of this more as death with dignity for the terminally ill. And it's years away, so don't lose sleep over me.
Also, i don't get the pushback you've received for wishing someone will continue to live. It's a weird hill to die on (heh, puns)
Anyway, thanks for the kindness and have a good life
I'm self employed. I enjoy my work. It's very rewarding, but every time i get a little extra money sometime comes along and takes it.
I have no retirement savings. My retirement plan is to kill myself when I'm too sick to work. I've made sure my life insurance is written so that it will pay out to my wife even if I off myself.
I come from a long line of men who don't die easy. I watched my grandfather refuse food or water after being diagnosed with stage 4 bone cancer and still live for two weeks. That was after ten years of enduring strike recovery. My dad coughed up a lung from congestive heart failure for over two years before finally wasting away, looking like a pregnant Holocaust survivor. Same for several other uncles and great-uncles. I figure I've got another 25 years before I'm a liability. I'm already physically miserable. Middle age sucks. Old age sucks even harder and I'm not even there yet.
I'm gonna follow one of my great-uncles examples and go for a walk in the woods. I'll make sure whatever SARs volunteer that draws the short straw isn't too traumatized when they find me. Just another old man that chose his own time
ETA: to be clear, i don't wish to die (any more than normal lol). But I am pragmatic about the reality of old age and my likely path. Will I feel the same in 25-35 years? Maybe not. We'll see what happens. Perhaps our fortunes will change for the better, perhaps we will be able to immigrate to a nation that has better social safety nets, perhaps we die in a meteor strike in 2039
I've only been to two therapists. Mostly because it's so much goddamned work just to get an appointment, let alone talk to someone. So many unreturned calls and ignored emails. So many broken websites.
The first therapist I tried I had a great initial visit, tried scheduling a follow-up and the front desk people were unresponsive, then got a message that my therapist was no longer with that office. Dunno if he died or moved but I can't find the dude.
Three years later I tried again at a different office, got told that in Japan ADHD doesn't exist and that i needed to buy a light therapy panel to open my third eye.
I'm tired boss
Opium Wars II, Electric Boogaloo
Yep!
The verb forms of chat·taʼthʹ (Hebrew) and ha·mar·tiʹa (Koine Greek) literally mean "to miss" in the sense of missing or not reaching a goal, way, mark, or correct point
For me it's a toss up between Night Watch and Reaper Man. Probably NW by a Librarian's hair
How they do rise up
You haven't touched a single boat tho
What is this goddamn UP Michigander bullshit? You count to ten with a six and a four, like any civilized human
More like the Vimes Unified Theory of Adulthood
Another gem from that theory:
"That was always the dream, wasn't it? 'I wish I'd known then what I know now'? But when you got older you found out that you NOW wasn't YOU then. You then was a twerp. You then was what you had to be to start out on the rocky road of becoming you now, and one of the rocky patches on that road was being a twerp"
High school was only a few hundred million seconds ago
Reminds me of Sam Vimes seeing his younger self and thinking "Thirty damn years of being hammered on the anvil of life, you poor bastard. You've got it all to come"
I thought that weather forecast was either a reminder or advice lol