TheBluePillock

So, so many people couldn't handle living in a world that wasn't built around their needs. For one brief moment I got to experience what it's like to live in a world that actually fits mine.

I'm sure you've heard all kinds of advice, so I won't add more. I just wanted to say I hope you give yourself a chance someday. I hope you find something or someone that helps you heal. But it's okay to take a break for a while too.

Sounds like restraint collapse. There's increasing recognition that it affects adults too.

It's capitalism. Unverified, but I've heard it explained as a result of tracking growth through new subscribers. Keeping around an old show won't drive new subscribers unless it's a huge show that generates a lot of buzz. New shows have a better chance of appealing to people who aren't already subscribers. So they cancel the old one and start up another new show instead.

You sound a lot like me. I was finally diagnosed AuDHD in my 40s, and my diagnosis specifically mentions that my ADHD is masked by several factors (with autism ranking highly among them). I also had a previous psychiatrist tell me straight up that he didn't believe I could have ADHD because I was nothing like his ADHD patients. For some of us, the mask can be extreme.

I like how all three of them have wildly different body language, and the guy on the left is not using his inside voice.

I used to get Taco Bell like twice a month because it was tasty and cheap, even if it was garbage. But when fast food prices exploded the last few years, it really lost its appeal. The quality and variety dropped, too, and it just doesn't make any goddamn sense to drop $15 to eat at fucking Taco Bell. There are countless better options for that price. I think I maybe ate there once in the last year and nothing about it made me feel like I missed it. A bit sad since I used to enjoy it, but in the end I'm better off.

They're not hurting animals. Even if you want to focus just on the sex, consider: one has no control over their sexual preference and fetishes. By commissioning artwork and engaging in roleplay with consenting adults, they have a healthy outlet for their desires which harms nobody, nor any animals. You don't have to understand it or like it. But it's just nsfw art and adults having sex. It's nothing to clutch your pearls over.

I'm sorry you had that experience, but glad that you continued trying and had better ones. There are definitely bad therapists, and more often it's just a bad fit. The same way you're not going to be friends with everyone, not every therapist can really work for you. It can take a few tries to find one that really clicks. I've met too many people who just gave up after one try, some after literally one session. Most were not anywhere near as bad as your experience. So give yourself a lot of credit that you kept trying even after that!

I wrote this out partially for anyone else who may be earlier in their mental health journey. If it's not a good fit after a few sessions, you can ask for a referral or just stop and find someone else. A professional will not take offense. It's pretty normal and an expected part of their job.

I describe it as more claustrophilic than agoraphobic. I've always enjoyed small, windowless rooms and closets. I'm willing to admit I've slept in the closet more than a few times.

And the better it is, the harder the fall. I'm five months into a very long RPG series, but starting to approach the end. The hangover from this one is going to be absolute hell.

He definitely should have left years ago, but I have sympathy for anybody caught in the clutches of an abuser, always catching glimpses of the wonderful person they used to be and hanging on promises that they'll do better. But that day never comes. Things have been bad for a while and you know it, but they don't seem that bad because it was always a little at a time and you'd get used to it. All of your other relationships have suffered, so this is all you have left to cling to. You just want to make them happy and have them love you again.

If you don't understand, I hope you never do.