TheBluePillock

I get it. I've been down that road within the last couple years after decades of "treatment resistant depression". The treatments aren't pseudoscience, but it might make more sense when you realize it doesn't do anything that can't be done without them. It just accelerates what you can already do with therapy and positive lifestyle changes - provided you do those things. It can also help people with lingering depression whose circumstances have changed for the better. I'm not saying it's impossible for them to help you and anything is worth a shot, but I would emphasize that you get what you put in and if your circumstances are a big contributor (like they are for many of us) it's going to be an uphill battle.

Shrooms have high potential and they're honestly easier to get. But mindset is still important. For some people, it's a one and done cure. For many, they need to re dose every few months. For very few, they convince themselves they've messed it up and make things worse. They hold the potential for radical shifts in perspective like you never imagined, but only if you're ready.

TMS and ketamine work by increasing neuroplasticity. Your provider should tell you: the day of and after treatment, avoid things that are stressful and upsetting. Stay off social media, or make sure the media you do use is a carefully curated feed with positivity and things like cute animal pictures. Unfortunately, in my experience, many providers are not great about giving you this information. They lead you to believe you can just go get drugged up or zapped with magnets and magically get better. It doesn't work like that. It makes your brain more flexible so you can break old thought patterns and develop new ones. If you just feed yourself stress and ragebait during the most critical periods, it is far less likely to help.

Shrooms are different. The mechanisms are less well understood because political fuckery has set research back over half a century, but neuroplasticity is likely only a fraction of it. They also break down barriers, create new associations, suppress the ego, and enhance social connections. It is ... an unforgettable experience. I can't say it's for everybody because mindset is so important. But for anyone who is really ready to take control of their depression, I think shrooms make ketamine seem like a complete waste of time and money.

You would probably get some good tips from an ADHD community, though the tips here have been good too.

I think you're overwhelmed, which is probably obvious but it may help to state it plainly. When I'm overwhelmed, it helps if I give myself permission to just drop everything for a bit. Whatever stuff I think I need to get done isn't going to get done anyway and stressing about it isn't helping, so I take a breather. Then I start with just basic self care, however much I can manage. I can't stand going without a shower so that's a first. Eating might wait if it's really bad, but I have some meal replacement shakes for emergencies when I really can't do anything else. I'll probably isolate and ignore people for a little bit, but if I do it right I start to feel up to talking before too many days go by. But by dropping everything and then adding it back one thing at a time, I stop feeling so overwhelmed.

The world finds a way to keep on going even as we sit still and catch our breath. Trauma and anxiety just make us feel like we might die if we don't do the things, even though it's almost never that dire. We have very intense feelings - and it is important to give yourself space to feel and process them - but they are just temporary feelings and you do not have to believe them.

Thank you. I really do appreciate it. I know I'll get there in the end because it's the right diagnosis. But help like this gets me there a lot faster.

It's the truth. Former domestic policy chief for the Nixon White House, John Ehrlichman, spoke out about it years after the fact:

“You understand what I’m saying? We knew we couldn’t make it illegal to be either against the war or black, but by getting the public to associate the hippies with marijuana and blacks with heroin. And then criminalizing both heavily, we could disrupt those communities,” Ehrlichman said. “We could arrest their leaders. raid their homes, break up their meetings, and vilify them night after night on the evening news. Did we know we were lying about the drugs? Of course we did.”

Psychedelics were criminalized in the US to target anti-war protesters. This is in the open and on the record, but they're still classified as a Schedule I drug: no currently accepted medical use and a high potential for abuse. Neither of those things are true. It's completely fucked up.

I appreciate the reassurance at least. I still think the results will be skewed from what they would be if I didn't have that level of familiarity and practice, but I can at least hope it won't be significant enough to matter. Or, better yet, that more weight will be placed on the human elements like actually talking with me. I guess mostly it's just wanting to actually feel heard and understood instead of having my concerns and experiences dismissed yet again. We wouldn't still be undiagnosed in our forties if people listened.

Yeah, any kind of electronic or reaction based test concerns me a little because I've been a gamer my entire life, so my experience doing similar activities is going to affect my results when compared against a control that hasn't spent almost 40 years practicing. Fucking up on purpose doesn't seem great either, but it's definitely something I've thought about if I found myself in that situation. It would be really nice if I didn't need to, but that's wishful thinking.

I'm well set up for telehealth and I really appreciate the info! I'll definitely take a look. If I can find a local place that accepts insurance, that would be a big help financially, but I'm glad to have somewhere to look if that doesn't pan out for any number of reasons.

I'm interested if it's not too much trouble. My current plan is to try and find any local resources or recommendations for doctors specializing in adult ADHD specifically. I was going to get around to that after the holidays. For sure. Probably.

So I'm always down for more info and more possible avenues I can explore. Especially since I don't know if I'll find what I'm looking for. Or when.

What kind of help are you offering? I'm 42 and recent events have pushed me to seek the official diagnosis, but my last attempt was a blatant waste of time. The psychiatrist wasn't even interested in the possibility.

I'm in this boat now. After years of the wrong diagnoses, I'm finally figuring out it's been ADHD this whole time. But I keep running into issues getting a proper diagnosis and treatment. The last guy decided it was depression after one meeting with zero tests and it's just so frustrating. If he actually knew anything, he'd know it's more complicated than that. He also didn't listen at all.

This is a mistaken take driven by corporations. Artists and creators generally don't own their own copyrights. It's the first thing they're forced to sign away to get any kind of contract, publishing deal, or other form of access from the big players who hold the keys to the kingdom. Nobody is making even a million dollars let alone more without going through them, and they don't agree unless they own those rights.

Small time creators can own their own work, but even then you have countless examples of creators who wouldn't play ball so the bigger companies just plagiarized them and they don't have the money to fight it. You need the backing of a big company to even enforce your claim against the other big companies that threaten it if it's actually lucrative. And, again, they won't unless they're the ones that own it because you signed it away.

Copyright does not protect creators in the slightest. It's a tool by and for large business used to legally steal from creators.

I see why you'd say they're still experimenting - and they are within the confines of the souls formula. They definitely aren't making carbon copies of past games. But, compared to the crazy variety and wild mechanics in their back catalog, the souls formula is pretty narrow. They've got a card battler, an adventure game series, a co-op puzzle platformer, and more in their portfolio. Demon's Souls itself was a huge experiment: souls, messages, and invasions into a mostly single player experience were completely novel and even weird. Let's not forget about world tendency, (even if we want to).

FromSoft was always like that: a bunch of totally random ideas you'd never seen before with enough good, bad, and weird to go around. The changes they make today are comparatively tame. Imagine if the next soulslike game did away with the entire magic system and instead you craft your own spells from elements (Eternal Ring). Or if they did away with respawns and overhauled the entire leveling system in Bloodborne like they did when trying to give Shadow Tower its own identity separate from King's Field. They were wild, but that's what gave the world soulslikes in the first place.

I understand why they play it safe. Honestly, they don't have a choice. It comes with the budget. So I really don't begrudge them the lack of experimentation too much. But I do find it sad because it's our loss. They could do better, and who knows what other stuff they might have come up with if they were truly free to experiment the way they used to. What I really wish is for them and other devs to just make smaller games with smaller budgets. Still make the AAA games, just set aside a small amount to experiment with and try new things too. That way we keep learning, discovering, and innovating. We'd all have better games for it.