Hey son,
It sounds like you are a skilled employee. One important lesson is that employers by their very nature try to minimize pay and this can lead to you feeling unvalued or unskilled but don't believe it. Know your worth. If nothing else use this time as a learning experience. Are you learning something that moves you forward in your career? Great. If not then try as hard as you can to learn on your off hours. I know that's hard but that's what i had to do when i was working retail
As far as failing college... don't dwell on this. I think you can learn a lot about someone's failures. The important things are this:
- are you going to let this failure define you?
- what are you going to do next?
- are you going to keep telling yourself you can't do something?
The biggest disservice you can do to yourself is tell yourself you can't do something. If part of you says that then tell that part "hey fuck you, i can do this!". No matter how many times you fall, don't stop believing in yourself. Everyone fails, or they aren't pushing themselves.
If you really want to go back to college then make it happen. Online classes or night classes will be better for your work schedule, that's how i was able to do it. It took me years doing part time classes while working full time but i eventually graduated.
Now come here and give your old man a hug kid
Funny, but this would be more accurate if the baby elephants trunk was on the big elephants groin