I have honestly completely given up on streaming all together. It's such a hassle. And looking for the thing that you want to watch always ends up the same way. It's on another service that you've never heard of before and don't pay for.
I watch the stuff I want to watch through other means. I don't have enough money to give 15 bucks a month to every asshole who has enough money to hoard movies and TV shows rights.
I don't. At all. I have very specific sensorial sensitivities and the way I taste things makes it so that pretty much all alcohol tastes the same. I feel like my taste buds somehow like individualizes the alcohol and that's all I taste. It's weird.
But also, and I guess that's the main thing, I have a traumatic history of alcohol. An abusive parent. I almost lost someone who I was very close with due to how much they drank one night and had to go to a hospital after they fell in a coma because of it. I've been around too many drunk people in my life.
Alcohol is expensive, it's literally poison, and it makes people act in a way that I find very unpredictable and scary. I've been harassed, threatened, borderline assaulted, touched in inappropriate ways, and so on by way too many drunk people. I don't ever want to do that to someone.
I see alcohol as the elephant in the room that no one wants to talk about. I genuinely believe, without a shadow of a doubt, that our cultures would be far better without it.
I think I'm quite judgmental on this issue. I recognize that, but I genuinely don't understand the people who feel the need to have alcohol and to get drunk to have fun. I don't understand the point of going somewhere and just drinking. I don't understand that. I really don't.
Like, I'm going to some kind of like party organized by friends or whatever and I'm like cool we're gonna get there, we're gonna get to sit around, chat, talk about stuff, play around, and just have fun and when I get there I realize oh, it's just an excuse to get drunk with loud ass music, again.
I've been the shepherd puppy for parties in my home organized by someone I live with acouple of times and that was already too many times. It's obnoxious being the only non-drunk person at a party. You feel like you need to babysit everyone because you don't want them to damage your apartment, which has happened! I have probably irreparable damage in a part of my apartment. That's probably going to cost me a lot the day I move out of it.
I've had to kick someone out of my home because the dude was just too drunk, kept sexually harassing people. Intimated me. Said fucked up shit about my then partner to my face. And was like on the verge of like sexually assaulting someone in my home. The victim who was also too drunk out of their mind to even realizing what was happening and even defended him. People treated me like I was crashing the party. Fucking hell. I don't want to ever leave that again.
Fuck alcohol. It's so fucking weird that we have normalized microdosing poison just for the hell of it.