Lumelore

joined 2 years ago

I pretty much only use it to generate boilerplate. I've tried using it to learn the syntax of new languages and it kind of works, but in my experience just reading the docs is better even if it seems like a lot of text. Also your IQ really does not matter. You can learn anything as long as you're willing to put in the time and effort; don't compare yourself to others it's fine to go at your own pace. (I'm Autistic also btw)

[โ€“] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 6 days ago (3 children)

That makes zero sense. Plus being trans isn't bad either.

[โ€“] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 11 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Are you only interested in tablet PCs? I have a drawing tablet I connect to my PC, does that count?

I do the same thing. I don't think it is cowardly to try to keep yourself safe, even if the method of doing so is avoidance.

There are some places where I just can't go. One of my cousins is getting married in a few months and her wedding is down south so I feel like it is much too risky to go. I don't want to get arrested and/or assaulted just for using the restroom and if I did I know those pigs would be especially mean just because I'm trans.

[โ€“] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 13 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I was about to comment this as well. I've always been kind of weak, but transitioning made me even more so and I quickly realized how easy it would be to get overpowered. Being around men definitely puts me on edge as well.

I'm Autistic and I struggle with driving too. There's too many things to pay attention to and it overwhelms my brain. It took me 5 tries to get my license. I genuinely would not drive if I didn't live in the US and had access to reliable public transport. I cope with this by being very cautious. I have a hard time determining speed and distance so sometimes I will sit at a stop sign for notably longer than I need to which upsets the people behind me but I think it's the only reason I haven't gotten in an accident yet. I hate how car brained people can be. There's nothing wrong with not being able to drive and lots of people in non-car brained countries who don't.

Yeah. I dual boot on an old laptop just in case I happen to need windows for something and sometimes the windows partition puts itself at the top of the boot order, but my Debian partition is still there and I just have to put it back at the top.

[โ€“] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 25 points 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago) (1 children)

I pretty much just sat at my desk, spaced out, and disassociated through most of grade school. In first grade I got detention for having a snowball fight, except I never did fight, and I was just picking up the snow to eat it (I was obsessed with eating snow as a kid). I was so confused and after that I felt like I couldn't play or engage with anything, so I began to disengage as well.

It's only recently that I've realized disassociating and disengaging have made me very lonely and are no longer helpful to me and I've started trying to put more effort into socializing, but I'm also not that great at it.

[โ€“] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago)

The sound it makes is exactly where the name comes from. Also there were people in soda territory also calling it pop as well way back in the day. That's why the term "soda pop" exists.

You can see a D.C. newspaper from the mid 1800s calling it pop in this wiki article.

History of Pop

newspaper image

 

Sorry, this is pretty much just me venting, but it is related to me being trans.

Anyways, I got my first pair of women's glasses yesterday. I was very excited and euphoric, but I somehow managed to scratch them today while I was fiddling with the nose pads. Fortunately the eyeglass place has a warranty for lens scratches, but I unfortunately had to use it less than 24 hours after getting my glasses. They said they have never seen an adult scratch their glasses that fast...

I also have a hearing soon to get my legal sex changed however I also have jury duty. I had called the court a while back to see if I could reschedule and they basically said that it's my problem, not theirs, and now that it is getting close to time, I am freaking out because idk what I'm going to do if they call me in when I have my hearing.

On top of that, I also have midterms this week so I'm stressed out from that as well. I just drank the last of my alcohol, but unfortunately maladaptive coping mechanisms aren't actually that effective (Who would have thought).

 

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Flo from Animal Crossing says to the player: Nice! I didn't think anyone here was good at being gay and cute!

 

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Idk if that dogshit executive order applies to birth certificates or if it's just passports and other federal identity documents. As far as I'm aware birth certificates are managed by the state and I live in a blue state (Minnesota), so I'm thinking maybe I could but idk.

I'm planning on using my passport that I got a few months ago as one of my supporting documents but I'm worried that it might get confiscated. (My passport has an F on it, my birth certificate currently has an M on it)

 

Sometimes I have days where I look in the mirror and think "damn I'm hot" and other days I think "damn I'm ugly" (because I think I look too much like my agab).

I'm trying to figure out what to do to feel better on those dysphoric days other than just caving in to food cravings or bed rotting.

I imagine other people here probably experience similar feelings. When you aren't feeling good it's easy to cave into unhealthy habits. I'm curious as to what others do if they are having a dysphoric day.

 

[Image Transcription]: Snoopy wearing a wizard hat making potions. Top text says "HOW TITTY SKITTLES IS MADE." Bottom text says "BOTTOM TEXT." In smaller font beneath bottom text it says in parentheses "i'm a bottom colon three."

 

 

This is easiest done by sorting by Top of 1 hour, so there are only a few posts to scroll past.

When you get all the way to the bottom where there are no more posts to load, try scrolling down.

While you do that, any NSFW image that currently has a blur over it will have the blur squished vertically towards the center, allowing you to see the top and bottom of the image unblurred.

 

I am using kubuntu and recently my .desktop files no longer launch from my desktop. If I go to ~/desktop in dolphin I can double click the same files and they launch just fine from there.

When I do try to launch from desktop it just shows a blank file icon very briefly.

Only new thing I've done since they stopped working is install virt-manager and QEMU to set up a Windows vm.

I also tried creating a new user and the problem still persisted, which means it is not anything in my home directory.

I've tried googling but haven't found anyone with the same problem as me.

 

I'm currently studying CS and I'll get my bachelor's degree next year. I've been searching for remote SWE internships for months now and have not had any luck. I even made a project to put on my resume and it's still just rejection email after rejection email. Maybe I need more projects? What tips do you have for getting an Internship?

I really don't want to go back to my previous job cause working with old people in rural America as a minority is literally hell. I think I might just go into omega debt instead lol.

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Looking for website (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/trans@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

I'm working on a website that compiles a bunch of trans resources into one place.

I made an "Am I trans?" page which has a link to the article on the gender dysphoria bible of the same name.

I also remember some other websites, but I can't find them. I think they were called something along the lines of Am I a girl? and there were other variants of it for transmascs and nonbinary people. I think I remember seeing the link on the transfem community, but I'd have to scroll through months of comments to find it. I thought I would check here first in case anyone has the link saved so I don't have to sift through all those comments.

Edit: I just found it! It's called "Turn me into a girl" and not "Am I a girl?". Here's a link to it: https://turn-me-into-a-girl.com/

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egg_irl (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

I'm not an egg anymore, but I found this meme I made several years ago when looking through an old hard drive and wanted to put it on Lemmy.

Image description: Top text says "Me: 100% totally cis male." Bottom text says "Also me: A girl with girl stuff and girl hair and girl clothes." The bottom part is actually an image of a Minecraft skin that is posted on Planet Minecraft.

 

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