Lumelore

joined 2 years ago
[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 2 days ago (1 children)

I am applying to entry level positions. I have a resume website I made as well as some projects. My most recent uses Spring Boot + React.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 2 days ago

Thanks. I will go look into that.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 43 points 2 days ago (7 children)

I got a CS degree earlier this year. I'm Autistic and am genuinely really passionate about it. I've put out hundreds of applications and got 1 interview but was ultimately rejected. I've tried applying to retail positions, even with a dumbed down resume so I don't look overqualified, and they don't want me either. I'm extremely low on money and I've been getting really bad panic attacks lately. I don't even know what to do anymore.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Dawg, I'm autistic and I've read it like 10 times and I still don't understand what the bottom part means. Like if it's meant for me it doesn't make sense and it would make sense applied to OP but then why is it not a reply to OP?

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 12 points 1 week ago (3 children)

I guess I should be very ashamed of myself then. I got my license at 21. I'm now 22 and still a virgin. I've known for a long time that I move slower than others and I really don't care. Like genuinely why do some people think having sex at a young age is like the most important thing ever?? Like why do you even care?

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

I strongly dislike red unless it is a pinkish or purplish red in which case I really like it. I will agree that beige is boring but I don't hate it. Otherwise I like every other color, including stereotypically ugly colors like puke green.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 1 month ago

I love how she's just putting them in her kitchen fridge. Imagine having to spend your winter sleeping with a jar of mayo...

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 month ago

Yeah sorry I actually lied earlier. I am really a 40 year old neckbeard living in my mom's basement. /s

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 20 points 1 month ago (2 children)

I was 13 in 2016. Believe it or not, many different people are on the internet.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 18 points 1 month ago (4 children)

I am not proud of it, but I used to be like that when I was around 11 to 13. Seeing right wingers bully the pokémon go kid turned me away from them and now I'm a socialist.

I did loathe myself so much back then. I know now I was experiencing gender dysphoria but I didn't know what it was then so it just made me confused and angry. I learned about the existence of transgender people from transphobes which just made me hate myself more.

So yes this a definitely a thing. I am not sure how you would discover this about someone while they are still in the self loathing stage, but I know of people in the self acceptance stage (myself included) who have talked about how they were like that in the past.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 month ago

The issue is that they are causing real harm by expressing those views. I know that there are people out there who hate me just because I exist and I know that will never change. While their words do not directly hurt me, they have the capability to incite physical violence against me which definitely can hurt me. It is not just me I worry about. My heart breaks for the victims of hate speech. People kill themselves because of it. People get murdered because of it. That is why it needs to be illegal.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 month ago (2 children)

I did specify protected class. That means no hate speech towards people based on race, culture, nationality, and ethnicity, gender and sexuality, religion, age, disability, etc.

Note that political affiliation and wealth are not protected classes.

I do not think it is dystopian or fucked up to fire someone because of hate speech. I would not want to be treated by a bigoted nurse. I wouldn't trust that they would treat me properly. And I wouldn't want to work with a bigoted person. I would be afraid of them. These people are bad for companies and cause loses. They should be fired. And that's just looking at it from an economical point of view.

 

Sorry, this is pretty much just me venting, but it is related to me being trans.

Anyways, I got my first pair of women's glasses yesterday. I was very excited and euphoric, but I somehow managed to scratch them today while I was fiddling with the nose pads. Fortunately the eyeglass place has a warranty for lens scratches, but I unfortunately had to use it less than 24 hours after getting my glasses. They said they have never seen an adult scratch their glasses that fast...

I also have a hearing soon to get my legal sex changed however I also have jury duty. I had called the court a while back to see if I could reschedule and they basically said that it's my problem, not theirs, and now that it is getting close to time, I am freaking out because idk what I'm going to do if they call me in when I have my hearing.

On top of that, I also have midterms this week so I'm stressed out from that as well. I just drank the last of my alcohol, but unfortunately maladaptive coping mechanisms aren't actually that effective (Who would have thought).

 

Image Transcription:

Flo from Animal Crossing says to the player: Nice! I didn't think anyone here was good at being gay and cute!

 

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Idk if that dogshit executive order applies to birth certificates or if it's just passports and other federal identity documents. As far as I'm aware birth certificates are managed by the state and I live in a blue state (Minnesota), so I'm thinking maybe I could but idk.

I'm planning on using my passport that I got a few months ago as one of my supporting documents but I'm worried that it might get confiscated. (My passport has an F on it, my birth certificate currently has an M on it)

 

Sometimes I have days where I look in the mirror and think "damn I'm hot" and other days I think "damn I'm ugly" (because I think I look too much like my agab).

I'm trying to figure out what to do to feel better on those dysphoric days other than just caving in to food cravings or bed rotting.

I imagine other people here probably experience similar feelings. When you aren't feeling good it's easy to cave into unhealthy habits. I'm curious as to what others do if they are having a dysphoric day.

 

[Image Transcription]: Snoopy wearing a wizard hat making potions. Top text says "HOW TITTY SKITTLES IS MADE." Bottom text says "BOTTOM TEXT." In smaller font beneath bottom text it says in parentheses "i'm a bottom colon three."

 

 

This is easiest done by sorting by Top of 1 hour, so there are only a few posts to scroll past.

When you get all the way to the bottom where there are no more posts to load, try scrolling down.

While you do that, any NSFW image that currently has a blur over it will have the blur squished vertically towards the center, allowing you to see the top and bottom of the image unblurred.

 

I am using kubuntu and recently my .desktop files no longer launch from my desktop. If I go to ~/desktop in dolphin I can double click the same files and they launch just fine from there.

When I do try to launch from desktop it just shows a blank file icon very briefly.

Only new thing I've done since they stopped working is install virt-manager and QEMU to set up a Windows vm.

I also tried creating a new user and the problem still persisted, which means it is not anything in my home directory.

I've tried googling but haven't found anyone with the same problem as me.

 

I'm currently studying CS and I'll get my bachelor's degree next year. I've been searching for remote SWE internships for months now and have not had any luck. I even made a project to put on my resume and it's still just rejection email after rejection email. Maybe I need more projects? What tips do you have for getting an Internship?

I really don't want to go back to my previous job cause working with old people in rural America as a minority is literally hell. I think I might just go into omega debt instead lol.

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Looking for website (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/trans@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

I'm working on a website that compiles a bunch of trans resources into one place.

I made an "Am I trans?" page which has a link to the article on the gender dysphoria bible of the same name.

I also remember some other websites, but I can't find them. I think they were called something along the lines of Am I a girl? and there were other variants of it for transmascs and nonbinary people. I think I remember seeing the link on the transfem community, but I'd have to scroll through months of comments to find it. I thought I would check here first in case anyone has the link saved so I don't have to sift through all those comments.

Edit: I just found it! It's called "Turn me into a girl" and not "Am I a girl?". Here's a link to it: https://turn-me-into-a-girl.com/

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egg_irl (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

I'm not an egg anymore, but I found this meme I made several years ago when looking through an old hard drive and wanted to put it on Lemmy.

Image description: Top text says "Me: 100% totally cis male." Bottom text says "Also me: A girl with girl stuff and girl hair and girl clothes." The bottom part is actually an image of a Minecraft skin that is posted on Planet Minecraft.

 

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