guismo

I just want to thank you. You gave me some new insights.

I'm still not sure if i need to do something about it, the same way that some people live happily being over weight. But the comparison gave me a new understanding of the issue.

I think a better way to put my question is: do you think yo need help? You said ASPD is bad. Do you agree, independently of what others say, that what you are is bad and needs to be fixed?

That's the conflict I still don't know the answer. If those diagnosis are as real as a broken bone, is it a disease that needs healing or a personality trait?

From everything you told me it seems to me you think it is something that needs healing, and you seem to be more rational than I am, so your opinion is being very useful and important. One thing is a "normal" person who has nothing to lose saying we need help, the other is someone else being on this side of the bridge.

I just want the answer to be "no, they are wrong and they just don't like that which is different", but I don't know if my wish is the reality.

You have a very admirable take on all these questions. It's hard to believe you have a disorder.

And on that note, do you think you do? From the comments it seems like you agree you have a disorder that needs fixing and is bad, as you put it.

I have a hard time with these diagnostics that seem to change a lot (a broken bone had always been a broken bone and needs healing). How far are things just different perspectives or just different personalities or disorders?

I have many of the same behaviors as people from many "disorders", and also from the same zodiac sign. If I changed them I would just be another person, not necessarily more healthy. And the same with everyone.

I'm not sure what I'm getting at. It's just that you have a much more controversial diagnosis and you seem more mentally stable than the vast majority I hear talking. It makes me question these diagnosis more than I do with myself. But then again, you seem more rational than I am, and with the least socially acceptable diagnosis and you seem to agree with it, so I think it's just me making excuses for my disorder and it all makes sense...

How do you feel about society's view on your diagnosis?

I'm told I may have bpd and I feel horrible about it, I know bpd people are hated and the support are for people who have to deal with them. However everywhere I read your diagnosis is seen as the worst. Basically looks like a name society came up for people they hate.

I'm not sure if my reading is correct. How do you think people see it and how do you feel about it? Do you agree with whatever the general opinion is?

Reading here it seems to be even worse than i thought. If you tell people about they will think you are a murdered/sadist/demon. Just the name they gave you must be harder than whatever symptoms you have...

From what you said, you are giving facebook what they want. They have no reason to block you. You have interacted a lot with the website and for a long time. They have learned much from you and your interests. If your pictures are fake or not it's probably irrelevant to them.

What I'll do, interact with their marketplace, is also in their interest and help them, which makes me hate myself for doing it and I'll limit to only things I absolutely can not find outside of facebook. And I will try to find what I need outside first.

Specially with servers in the US I wouldn't be too hopeful about it. Or at all.

But even if the server is in europe, if I were facebook I would certainly keep a room of backups labeled something else just in case. Unlikely fines in the present and possibly massive profit in the future for whatever reason. Why not? The thing is that no one should expect that info uploaded to the internet can be ever really deleted. There should be campaigns to make people more aware of that. As in "we made these laws to protect you, but the only real protection comes from you".

Here in the united states of the south privacy laws are foreign concepts. But even if we had laws I wouldn't trust it. What's stopping them from making a backup of the data, deleting from the main server and saying "there, I did it"?

To me once the company gets your info, you lost it. But to still receive spam is a problem. I had the same issue with companies here. I would like to at least be removed from their spam list.

Thanks for that link, there seems to be a lot of useful stuff there! I can see teddit, which haven't worked for a long time. But still interesting.

The less info they can collect on me, the less profitable I am and most likely to be blocked, I imagine. My objective and facebook's objective are in direct conflict. Not giving them info and still interacting to people who use it is the challenge.

Yeah, after reading your post I searched and found a few. All looking super dodgy.

I'm sure they don't care about people selling the account. However I get the account, as long as they can profit from me it's all they would care. But I think it would go back to the initial reason they blocked me, because it doesn't seem that I would be profitable.

So I'm not sure if going through one of those dodgy websites and buying that would not get the same result..

I am happy to pay for useful services to companies I trust, and facebook is possibly the last one on the list. Even if they told me they don't track me I wouldn't believe. Not they would be even allowed not to, being an american company...

Where?

I think there would be a good chance they would know I'm not the original owner, with all the changed behaviour, and then they would still block me.

But it's something I didn't think about... doesn't seem like a good option, but an option still..

Oh... that's bad. But I always imagined that that might do it. I just don't know if I need them enough to go that far.

Unfortunately I think I know the answer and I'm not wanting to face it...

I wish there was something I could donate to help destroy facebook. I don't want to give them 1cent, but I would pay a few thousand dollars if I thought I had a chance of removing its influence from my life.