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Many years ago I realised that any believe system based on fear of something can't be trusted. If it tries to manipulate you in any way, it's just that, manipulation. Maybe that was helpful centuries ago among fearful people, I don't know.
From what was left, all that stuff didn't really matter, specially if it was true because it is some sort of wait and see and meanwhile it doesn't affect me.
There was a book I read maybe 25 years ago about this that helped a lot to shape how I see spiritualism. I could try to find it if you're interested, I don't think it would be hard to find.
I wrote journals for years, they help a little. I used them to vent, to discuss with myself about stuff I couldn't discuss with someone else, put thoughts in order, practice calligraphy (people now praise my handwriting), etc. I never took it as a chore, so when I didn't feel like it I didn't write.
I went to cognitive behavioural therapy and that not only helped the most, it gave me tools to get out of the hole when I fall into it.
Also helped to stop pretending anything on a screen is social interaction. I ditched every social platform except reddit and now lemmy, these two, because I don't know anyone feel different
The popular party is not centrist, they once called themselves that but they've always been right wing. They might seem centrists now that the far right has gained prominence but they are not.
Once said that, yeah, the socialist party has been practising the political inbreeding for so long that I doubt there's anyone left with half a brain.